Thursday, October 13, 2011

Here's to an update!

So yes….it’s been a while.  A long while actually.  But to my defense, I’ve been so busy with school stuff and a growing baby.  Plus, I’m addicted to Pinterest!  But on a good note, I am taking the time to post today!
Here’s the update.  I’m down 33 pounds!  That’s only 7 pounds away from my goal!!  My first goal that is.  I have 1 whole month to lose those 7 pounds and that’s making it through Halloween…Lord help me!  I was telling my mom how unreal it felt to have lost 33 pounds.  In my head I knew I could never stay at the weight I was, but then it never seemed realistic for me to lose the weight.  Does that make sense?  60 pounds….did I really need to lose 60 pounds?  Could I lose 60 pounds?  I’ve never had to lose 60 pounds before…that thought just kept taunting me!  But here I am…Over half way there and I feel great.  And out of all honestly, it’s not been too bad.  Yes, I’ve wanted to cheat and yes, I’ve dreaded my workouts.  But it’s been so exhilarating pushing myself and seeing results.  If I was a druggie I would say weight loss is my high!! Lol! But I’m not…no worries.
I will express something that has been difficult for me.  It’s hard for me to take compliments.  And I know people are just being nice and noticing…and I want them to, but it’s so hard to say thank you!  And then say those numbers again…those taunting numbers when people ask.  It’s so difficult.  I did get the sweetest compliment from a very nice older man at the gym.  He said “young lady…I do believe you are losing weight!  Your face is getting skinny!”  That one I didn’t have a hard time saying thank you to.
What I have realized over the last several months is that it is possible.  If I can do this…if I can change my eating habits, if I can make exercising just a part of my day, I can get a high from losing weight….ANYONE can do it.  And that’s my drive right now….

i promise to blog tonight!

TONIGHT!  I'M GONNA UPDATE EVERYONE TONIGHT!